TheDancingGoron

I guess it has been quite a while since I've been on here. Usually, I'm the type of guy who will gladly give an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on, but it's been a while since I myself have vented. Gosh, where to start... I got let go from a good paying job over a year ago, due to a "can't win" situation, and I ended up at a local grocery store for a short time doing the nighttime stocking gig. My crew chief kept putting me on bottled water detail and after about a week or so of slinging packs of water from pallet to shelf, I began to get a real bad pain in my side. LSS, I developed a hernia; got a doctor's note and gave it to the store manager. He didn't accept it, so I turned in my uniform; I put my health over money any day. That was last October...been trying to get a job ever since. I feel like all the minor stuff I'm doing around the house constantly is starting to take a toll on me. It's always either laundry, dishes, mowing the lawn (which usually takes a few hours to do, pending hot weather), or other outdoor work (like trying to pull these stupid rose-of-sharon plants, roots are so deep, it's hell to pull em out). A few weeks ago, I did decide to get back in touch with an old co-worker, who at the time, I felt broke my trust because I had felt he used me as an example to the others on our crew ("Well, if he got his best friend in hot water, who knows what he'd do to us!"). But when we got together a few weeks ago, he told me how wrong it was of him and he apologized; I knew he truthfully meant it and I forgave him. It felt good to bury the hatchet on our past and rekindle our friendship. So...it felt a bit awkward coming back on here, knowing that there was old messages that I could still access and brought me back to a few rocky spots back in my college days. I used to find myself thinking about the past quite a bit, especially recently due to quarantine, and it started to get to be so much, I had to tell myself to quit it. I had to stop with all the "What if?" scenarios running through my head, between exes and friendships in the past. I know I wasn't perfect then, I'll never be perfect, and I know my friends weren't either; we're human. We make mistakes and we learn from them. There's a few demons from my past self that I got rid of and I learned what I can and can't do; I know a few actions years ago nearly cost me a few friendships. So...yeah. I think I might start coming back more often here; might try to see if I can find any old stories to brush the dust off of and post. If anyone wants to chat, I'd be more than happy to get back to chatting with folks from DA again. Hope everyone is doing well in these current times.